I hurt your feelings, too. I'm sorry. [ Her sleeves are long, engulfing her hands, and she twists them nervously. She's here now, so he has to look at her while they're talking, but she needs to keep looking away... especially as she starts rambling again. ]
I... I signed a contract with someone! So... because of that, I can buy things if I want to. I try not to, because technically it isn't my money! But I told him I'd find a way to repay him, even if I don't know how yet and he told me I don't need to. I still want to, and I'll find a way somehow, but for right now... [ She was going somewhere with this! Ferdinand just has to wait for her to make sense. ]
For right now, um, do you want to have tea somewhere outside...? [ . . . ] You can say no, if you want! We can do something else! Or... Well, it's your birthday, so you should get to pick what you want to do, or who to have tea with!
[Ferdinand listens patiently as she provides some background before arriving at her point. Curiosity gets whetted upon her mentioning her contract, which, while a bit of protectiveness rears up in him at knowing that she is in the care and household of a stranger from another world entirely, he manages to get placated by the fact that he seems at least kind enough not to expect any repayment for helping her in a way that is his duty here as one who has been granted the means. It's a good sign. He will have to ask her more about her Dominant.
It also surprises him, that Bernadetta of any of them was able to contract within a month or so of being here. But at least he doesn't have to worry about her delaying it...]
How could I decline? That sounds like a marvelous way to celebrate. Indeed, I choose tea, and I choose you!
[ Why was this so hard? She frets a little, fidgeting with her sleeves a bit before she makes sure to look him in the eye too. ]
Okay! I mean... I'm glad! Do you want to go now? I'm not really dressed for anything fancy. I'll find something more appropriate if you want to. [ Not that there's really fancy tea shops around here. There was a quiet café not too far off that she'd heard of, some places that had tea and coffee and something called curry. Was that good for a birthday?? ]
Sorry. I didn't plan... I just thought, I just wanted to get these... these things to you and slip away. [ But he caught her before she could! That turned out to be a good thing, somehow? ]
There is no need to worry about how you are dressed. [Is that oversized hoodie even her clothes? Or is that perhaps an article of her new Dominant's? No matter. Even if he's finding himself just a tad salty at the thought for whatever reason, what's more important is...] Right now, all I care about is spending time with you. I do not know of any good spots to have tea in the Down, but... I have heard of good things about Honestea in the Up!
[If that is even feasible for them right now... Ferdinand considers, though he is a bit reluctant.]
Though I suppose we could always find something a little closer. I should not be so swift to judge a place before I even try it, after all.
[ If he really wanted to ask, he might be pleased to know that it's her own hoodie! But maybe he shouldn't make assumptions of how close she is or isn't to her contract partner...
She does brighten at the thought of Honestea, though. That's closer to where she now stays, which she thinks is favorable. ]
We can go to Honestea. I think they'll be nice to us there. [ Since it's run by LIErs and all. ] Do you want to take that... elevator? Or do you want to take the train? [ Both are frightening in different ways to Bernie, as the train provided a view, but meant they had to give way to dominants. Meanwhile the elevator was quick, but still sort of scary. ]
I wish we could just warp over. All this walking around outside is so hard and so scary, especially down here. [ Near the public housing was okay, but gang presence and criminals started to make themselves known the further away they got. She's told she worries too much, but honestly down here it felt like her worry was justified, and part of why she was convinced to sign on with someone who lived in the Up. ]
Wouldn't that be convenient! But at least when we are together, we can make each other safer. I will look out for you, Bernadetta. [He says this with so much sunny conviction, as though the will to do so will triumph in the face of all else. Some of that conviction is well-founded, at least, so seasoned in combat that meant life or death as he was, and often in close quarters. He has protected Bernadetta from things worse than thugs before.] That said, I think we should take the elevator. I find that the train station is often creeping with brutish knaves.
[He also finds a bit of a thrill in taking the elevator...]
[ You know, all that earnest conviction may have been a turn off long ago. But it's so familiar, and such a relief to hear after she thought she could never be friends with him ever again, that she just laughs a little. It's enough to make her eyes crinkle, even as she looks away and hides her smile behind a hand. ]
Okay. Okay, Ferdinand. And I'll look out for you, too. I think I've figured out the shortest and fastest way, so we can go together. [ The benefit of being Bernie, she was always trying to escape. So she knew all the best routes and shortcuts to take.
A beat passes, and then: ]
I'm glad. That you still want to see me. I was a little afraid, but... [ She shakes her head. ] I guess I have to stop being so scared of people all the time.
Of course I want to see you! If that was all it took to chase me away, then I am afraid you could not call me a true friend.
[She needs reassurances like these more than most people. And that's okay! He is glad to offer them plentifully. Does he need anything before he leaves? No, not really. She's coming as she is, and so he will do the same. He starts coming down the stairs to catch up with her so that they can get out of here.]
[ That's food for thought, isn't it? Because she let her impulses drive herself away from him, from Hubert, from Annette. Was she not a good friend? She's the problem, but... she doesn't want to be the problem again.
She tucks her hands into the convenient front pocket of her hoodie as they fall into step - she'll try not to fall behind him! ]
We can go this way. It won't be too bad! I've stopped bringing my bow around since I haven't really needed it. Isn't that a surprise?
[ Either way, it wouldn't be much use in close quarters, which most crime here happened to be. Luckily the way to the elevator is pretty straightforward and safe, so they should be their in no time. ]
When we're in the Up... I was thinking - we should, um. Look for stables? I think there's some up there. If not for today, maybe... next time?
There is a bit of irony to that, is there not? Similarly, I am not usually bringing my lance with me most places.
[But Bernadettaaaaa what about equipping Close Counter That can invite trouble in different ways depending on where he is, Up or Down. It is particularly troublesome in the Up, where the need to defend oneself is less prominent and therefore somewhat senseless to do anyway. At any rate, he can still ward enemies off without a weapon, though not as effectively (or mortally, which is not something he wants! Bad idea besides, most likely).
Ferdinand looks at Bernadetta, piqued with intrigue.]
Stables? To board a horse in? [A sad smile appears.] I no longer have one. Unless... you mean for me to get the chance to spend time with them? [Some hopeful excitement trails at the end of his question.] That might be nice. I do so miss being around horses. Even seeing one would do me well.
[ Maybe this is a Bow Knight build Bernie that abuses Canto! Oh no, has she said something bad? She doesn't like that smile of his. But her brows furrow in thought. ]
I just heard about them being around, so I don't know -- maybe... we could see if they have a horse to spare, if you want one here? [ There's no true need for one - they didn't have anywhere to go. But... ]
I think I'd like to see some, too. I know it was tedious, but I liked looking after them at home. A lot of people don't like stablework, so... [ They were one of those places she could hide in, if she needed to. ]
[Any wistfulness for his equine companions falls away as they reminisce and break open ways they might be able to reconnect to a piece of themselves they left behind.]
They do grouse and gripe about the task, don't they? [he agrees brightly, with a short chuckle at the thought.] Which is why I wonder if we have not just walked right into the perfect solution? Surely, if there are stables, then they must have need of stable hands? Imagine, Bernadetta! It would be wonderful to get the chance to tend to horses with you again. And as I have been finding myself so restless these days, this would be a fine remedy for some of that.
Oh, maybe! Do you think they'll let us help out as stable hands? [ Such a different, unglamorous way of passing the time. She's also been thinking of getting some sort of work, she didn't like having to rely on her dominant for money. If things didn't work out for her embroidery efforts, this would be another option. ]
Even if they wouldn't, it'll just be a nice way to spend an afternoon or two. Maybe. If you think so?
An afternoon alone would be splendid. Oh, this is so exciting. I can hardly wait. [Yeah, Ferdinand, we can tell! You're practically sparkling. A whim seizes him, then.] Do you think we can check them out before or after we have tea? I must make myself present at my temporary Dominant's place later today, so my time is not unlimited, but even just a look would be delightful.
Oh. I think we can do whatever you want to do, Ferdinand. [ She'll have a tough time of it, if there's a lot of people in a place she's never been before. Bernie isn't adventurous or anything, and often needs... prep time. To do things. New things!
But stables aren't technically new. And she'll be with someone she knew, so... It'll be fine, surely. Hopefully. She'll do it, because it's his birthday. ]
Also, um, I didn't know you had other plans. I'm so sorry! If you want, we can have tea another time? I don't want anyone to get mad at you.
Please do not get the wrong idea. I must assure you I have enough time to budget like this with you. Hmm... [His pace slows a little as he turns inward briefly to consider the two options and how to approach them. They are both his cup of tea, so to speak, and would be fantastic ways to have a birthday outing.] Let's stick with our original plan for now. But we absolutely must go out and introduce ourselves to the horses and who cares for them sometime soon. It will give me something to look forward to.
Yeah. [ He's right, isn't he? He sounds like he's right. Bernie nods, and resolves to herself that she'll go out to do this with him. She could do that. ] ... Yeah! I think it will be something to look forward to, too.
[ They get to the elevator, and Bernie looks around, surprised. That didn't feel very far. How funny, that she could talk to Ferdinand and feel neither distance, nor the passage of time. Hopefully it isn't too crowded, and they don't run into much trouble when they get to the Up.
[Ferdinand notes her deep breath, her hesitance in proceeding forward and up. Hmm...]
Does riding the elevator make you uneasy?
[Maybe it was shortsighted of him not to have considered this a possible impediment to the elevator route. Especially having ridden with Hubert, who tried to brave it but could not fully hide the nervous tension that came with being lifted higher. In Ferdinand's mind, it is better than chancing the train station.]
[ She looks at him uncertainly. She could be honest, but he'd want to take some other way, and she didn't want to walk all the way to that train station and have to do what other dominants said there, especially if it meant he would need to do what they said, so the elevator was probably the best thing for the both of them even if it shook and felt strange and was packed with other strangers and, and, and... ]
Um... a little. But the train is too far, and I think it'll be okay. I'm just being silly - everyone else can use it just fine!
You are not being silly, Bernadetta. Everyone else is used to this contraption, but we had nothing like this where we come from. [Riding flying mounts is quite a bit different than letting a machine drive one up to staggering heights. He wants to make her more comfortable, somehow... The elevator comes down, and the doors open for the passengers to board. They have little time to dilly-dally. Ferdinand glances over to it, and then to Bernadetta, and instead of searching for the words or the method by which to spare her some discomfort, he takes her by the hand and starts to move, lingering until she is ready to follow, smiling at her to reassure her.]
But we can continue to get used to it together. Would you like me to stake out a corner for you, so that you only have to stand next to me?
["You can hold onto me if you get scared," he wants to add, but after their whole to-kiss-or-not-to-kiss debacle, he holds his tongue as a precaution. After all, the thought kind of makes his heart skip.]
[ There's enough people around that Bernie can recognize the futility of his idea. Everyone had to come in somehow, so it wouldn't do to set aside a whole corner for her. That would be selfish! People would get mad.
It's also crowded enough that she holds onto his hand like it's a lifeline. Between keeping to herself and staying close to a familiar presence... The latter felt much safer.
So she follows him in, and stays close to wherever he'll go. ]
You don't have to do that. Staking out a corner, I mean. Sorry. I can... this is just fine! [ There's so many people, and it's a bit of a squeeze, but... it'll be over soon! She takes a deep breath before the doors closed. Maybe she can focus on holding it until they open again. ]
[She is just trying to put on a brave face for him, isn't she? Perhaps to avoid creating an inconvenience to him and to others. In that case, he will stop asking her if she would like him to do something for her and simply try to do it.]
There will be nothing gained from failing to try. Come on.
[He holds her hand like it's his sworn duty as he pushes and knits through the thickening crowd to carve out the most opportune space. While it might be possible to get what he wants, he starts to get some disgruntled attitude, especially from a few Dominants who did not appreciate the way this Submissive so impertinently bumped against them. A tight weave forms naturally, obstructing Ferdinand's nearest goal point, and at this juncture, they are surrounded, people are miffed, and the elevator is moving. And poor Bernadetta is not in a good spot.
Apology scrunches his expression. Failing her like this when he was so determined to make her most comfortable makes him want to kick himself. The only thing left to do is... shield her as best as he can from being squished by other people, guiding his arm behind her in the closest thing to an embrace.]
I am sorry, Bernadetta... That did not work out so well this time.
[ This could fluster her, maybe, if she weren't so agoraphobic. The press of too many people, too close, are setting off a lot of alarm bells in her head; but being in a tiny box with nowhere to go, she has nothing to do but shut most everything out for a few moments.
She owes it to him to respond, though, so she manages to mumble a little It's okay, looking down at her feet so she doesn't have to look anywhere else and just let her thoughts get away from her. She's wearing decent walking boots with her tights today. Really good for running away! She didn't think she'd see Ferdinand up close so she hadn't thought about perfumes or oils like Dorothea said she ought to use, so she probably just smells like Geto's house, incense and green tea. Is that bad? It's probably bad. She gets the feeling that neither Hubert nor Ferdinand like the idea of her being contracted. But Geto's been nothing nice and accomodating, and lets her do what she likes, see who she likes. Lately she's found herself thinking of familiar things and familiar people, so she keeps coming back to making and giving them things... maybe she ought to tone that down? After all, getting too close to them in this city will make her shortcomings that much more obvious. She didn't want them to know all that.
There's a ding of a bell as the metal box shudders to a stop and she clutches Ferdinand's hand close, tries not to rush out the door. It was impossible to miss how disgruntled some Dominants were being, so she didn't want to invite further scrutiny - at least until they could finally get back outside, where it's... Not sunny, but at least there's no rain, today. A good day for tea, hopefully? ]
[Ferdinand scarcely noticed trifling details like how she smelled. Even their proximity and how that makes him feel sunk deeper and deeper into the backseat as the weight of failing her and attuning to how the whole experience was getting to her took the helm.
If she doesn't rush, then Ferdinand is booking it in an orderly manner, without outright making a dash for it or getting in anyone's way. He just knows that she needs to be apart from the crowd, and the sooner the better.]
[ She shakes her head no, though she keeps a tight hand on him. She's fine, no one's hurt her like she irrationally thought they would, and Ferdinand is still here. ]
No, I... I'm okay. We can go! [ They should get going, even! They had a time table, didn't they, since Ferdinand had to be elsewhere after this, too. ]
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Thank you. I know I don't exactly make things easy.
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I... I signed a contract with someone! So... because of that, I can buy things if I want to. I try not to, because technically it isn't my money! But I told him I'd find a way to repay him, even if I don't know how yet and he told me I don't need to. I still want to, and I'll find a way somehow, but for right now... [ She was going somewhere with this! Ferdinand just has to wait for her to make sense. ]
For right now, um, do you want to have tea somewhere outside...? [ . . . ] You can say no, if you want! We can do something else! Or... Well, it's your birthday, so you should get to pick what you want to do, or who to have tea with!
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It also surprises him, that Bernadetta of any of them was able to contract within a month or so of being here. But at least he doesn't have to worry about her delaying it...]
How could I decline? That sounds like a marvelous way to celebrate. Indeed, I choose tea, and I choose you!
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Okay! I mean... I'm glad! Do you want to go now? I'm not really dressed for anything fancy. I'll find something more appropriate if you want to. [ Not that there's really fancy tea shops around here. There was a quiet café not too far off that she'd heard of, some places that had tea and coffee and something called curry. Was that good for a birthday?? ]
Sorry. I didn't plan... I just thought, I just wanted to get these... these things to you and slip away. [ But he caught her before she could! That turned out to be a good thing, somehow? ]
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[If that is even feasible for them right now... Ferdinand considers, though he is a bit reluctant.]
Though I suppose we could always find something a little closer. I should not be so swift to judge a place before I even try it, after all.
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She does brighten at the thought of Honestea, though. That's closer to where she now stays, which she thinks is favorable. ]
We can go to Honestea. I think they'll be nice to us there. [ Since it's run by LIErs and all. ] Do you want to take that... elevator? Or do you want to take the train? [ Both are frightening in different ways to Bernie, as the train provided a view, but meant they had to give way to dominants. Meanwhile the elevator was quick, but still sort of scary. ]
I wish we could just warp over. All this walking around outside is so hard and so scary, especially down here. [ Near the public housing was okay, but gang presence and criminals started to make themselves known the further away they got. She's told she worries too much, but honestly down here it felt like her worry was justified, and part of why she was convinced to sign on with someone who lived in the Up. ]
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[He also finds a bit of a thrill in taking the elevator...]
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Okay. Okay, Ferdinand. And I'll look out for you, too. I think I've figured out the shortest and fastest way, so we can go together. [ The benefit of being Bernie, she was always trying to escape. So she knew all the best routes and shortcuts to take.
A beat passes, and then: ]
I'm glad. That you still want to see me. I was a little afraid, but... [ She shakes her head. ] I guess I have to stop being so scared of people all the time.
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[She needs reassurances like these more than most people. And that's okay! He is glad to offer them plentifully. Does he need anything before he leaves? No, not really. She's coming as she is, and so he will do the same. He starts coming down the stairs to catch up with her so that they can get out of here.]
Lead the way, Bernadetta.
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She tucks her hands into the convenient front pocket of her hoodie as they fall into step - she'll try not to fall behind him! ]
We can go this way. It won't be too bad! I've stopped bringing my bow around since I haven't really needed it. Isn't that a surprise?
[ Either way, it wouldn't be much use in close quarters, which most crime here happened to be. Luckily the way to the elevator is pretty straightforward and safe, so they should be their in no time. ]
When we're in the Up... I was thinking - we should, um. Look for stables? I think there's some up there. If not for today, maybe... next time?
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But Bernadettaaaaa what about equipping Close CounterThat can invite trouble in different ways depending on where he is, Up or Down. It is particularly troublesome in the Up, where the need to defend oneself is less prominent and therefore somewhat senseless to do anyway. At any rate, he can still ward enemies off without a weapon, though not as effectively (or mortally, which is not something he wants! Bad idea besides, most likely).Ferdinand looks at Bernadetta, piqued with intrigue.]
Stables? To board a horse in? [A sad smile appears.] I no longer have one. Unless... you mean for me to get the chance to spend time with them? [Some hopeful excitement trails at the end of his question.] That might be nice. I do so miss being around horses. Even seeing one would do me well.
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Maybe this is a Bow Knight build Bernie that abuses Canto!Oh no, has she said something bad? She doesn't like that smile of his. But her brows furrow in thought. ]I just heard about them being around, so I don't know -- maybe... we could see if they have a horse to spare, if you want one here? [ There's no true need for one - they didn't have anywhere to go. But... ]
I think I'd like to see some, too. I know it was tedious, but I liked looking after them at home. A lot of people don't like stablework, so... [ They were one of those places she could hide in, if she needed to. ]
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They do grouse and gripe about the task, don't they? [he agrees brightly, with a short chuckle at the thought.] Which is why I wonder if we have not just walked right into the perfect solution? Surely, if there are stables, then they must have need of stable hands? Imagine, Bernadetta! It would be wonderful to get the chance to tend to horses with you again. And as I have been finding myself so restless these days, this would be a fine remedy for some of that.
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Even if they wouldn't, it'll just be a nice way to spend an afternoon or two. Maybe. If you think so?
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But stables aren't technically new. And she'll be with someone she knew, so... It'll be fine, surely. Hopefully. She'll do it, because it's his birthday. ]
Also, um, I didn't know you had other plans. I'm so sorry! If you want, we can have tea another time? I don't want anyone to get mad at you.
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[ They get to the elevator, and Bernie looks around, surprised. That didn't feel very far. How funny, that she could talk to Ferdinand and feel neither distance, nor the passage of time. Hopefully it isn't too crowded, and they don't run into much trouble when they get to the Up.
She sucks a deep breath through her teeth. ]
Um. Should... we just go?
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Does riding the elevator make you uneasy?
[Maybe it was shortsighted of him not to have considered this a possible impediment to the elevator route. Especially having ridden with Hubert, who tried to brave it but could not fully hide the nervous tension that came with being lifted higher. In Ferdinand's mind, it is better than chancing the train station.]
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Um... a little. But the train is too far, and I think it'll be okay. I'm just being silly - everyone else can use it just fine!
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But we can continue to get used to it together. Would you like me to stake out a corner for you, so that you only have to stand next to me?
["You can hold onto me if you get scared," he wants to add, but after their whole to-kiss-or-not-to-kiss debacle, he holds his tongue as a precaution. After all, the thought kind of makes his heart skip.]
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It's also crowded enough that she holds onto his hand like it's a lifeline. Between keeping to herself and staying close to a familiar presence... The latter felt much safer.
So she follows him in, and stays close to wherever he'll go. ]
You don't have to do that. Staking out a corner, I mean. Sorry. I can... this is just fine! [ There's so many people, and it's a bit of a squeeze, but... it'll be over soon! She takes a deep breath before the doors closed. Maybe she can focus on holding it until they open again. ]
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There will be nothing gained from failing to try. Come on.
[He holds her hand like it's his sworn duty as he pushes and knits through the thickening crowd to carve out the most opportune space. While it might be possible to get what he wants, he starts to get some disgruntled attitude, especially from a few Dominants who did not appreciate the way this Submissive so impertinently bumped against them. A tight weave forms naturally, obstructing Ferdinand's nearest goal point, and at this juncture, they are surrounded, people are miffed, and the elevator is moving. And poor Bernadetta is not in a good spot.
Apology scrunches his expression. Failing her like this when he was so determined to make her most comfortable makes him want to kick himself. The only thing left to do is... shield her as best as he can from being squished by other people, guiding his arm behind her in the closest thing to an embrace.]
I am sorry, Bernadetta... That did not work out so well this time.
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She owes it to him to respond, though, so she manages to mumble a little It's okay,
looking down at her feet so she doesn't have to look anywhere else and just let her thoughts get away from her. She's wearing decent walking boots with her tights today. Really good for running away! She didn't think she'd see Ferdinand up close so she hadn't thought about perfumes or oils like Dorothea said she ought to use, so she probably just smells like Geto's house, incense and green tea. Is that bad? It's probably bad. She gets the feeling that neither Hubert nor Ferdinand like the idea of her being contracted. But Geto's been nothing nice and accomodating, and lets her do what she likes, see who she likes. Lately she's found herself thinking of familiar things and familiar people, so she keeps coming back to making and giving them things... maybe she ought to tone that down? After all, getting too close to them in this city will make her shortcomings that much more obvious. She didn't want them to know all that.
There's a ding of a bell as the metal box shudders to a stop and she clutches Ferdinand's hand close, tries not to rush out the door. It was impossible to miss how disgruntled some Dominants were being, so she didn't want to invite further scrutiny - at least until they could finally get back outside, where it's... Not sunny, but at least there's no rain, today. A good day for tea, hopefully? ]
That... was that okay?
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If she doesn't rush, then Ferdinand is booking it in an orderly manner, without outright making a dash for it or getting in anyone's way. He just knows that she needs to be apart from the crowd, and the sooner the better.]
For me, yes. Do you need a moment, Bernadetta?
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No, I... I'm okay. We can go! [ They should get going, even! They had a time table, didn't they, since Ferdinand had to be elsewhere after this, too. ]
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Thank you. I know I don't exactly make things easy.
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